I'm trying to organise what I want; which currently is a lot. Those shoes, classes on Monday night and Friday night - coupled with Monday afternoons, Flashmob rehearsals on Thursdays and the occasional one on Sundays as well. It's expensive. Train fare, class costs, clothes and, to top it all off, a performance on the 17th of July.

It's on a stage. In front of actual, real life people, with faces and opinions. The problem? It clashes with the 2000 Trees Festival which I've had booked for months and cancelling isn't an option. I need to perform though; getting over that initial barrier sooner rather than later will be pretty key to any confidence issues I have when it comes to dance.

As for that - I have class tomorrow night with Hollie and, even though these are extremely hard routines, I'm determined to not let them get me down. If anything I'm trying to take the negatives and build on it; be realistic about what I want and go from there. I know I won't be as good as the rest after 5 short months compared to their years of professional experience but, nonetheless, keeping my head up.